What is it?
So, I decided to send a text message to this guy I like and am ‘dating’ (in quotes because I truly have no idea what that term means), saying “yea, I do want to talk more on the phone,” in active response to my extra passive aggressive answer to his question on valentine’s day as to whether I was asking if we could talk more on the phone? How I got there? Don’t ask. Let’s just say my response was, I ain’t askin you for nuthin! I’m jus sayin’ (I’ve recently realized I actually may be a ghetto girl in disguise) So this exchange and all the thought I’ve been putting into it made me think, especially as there seem to be a slew of other men out there who want in (pun intended), why do I feel like I’m working so hard to get what I want when I know other dudes would shovel snow to get close to me like this dude is/has….? I don’t have an answer, but I do know it always seems to go like this: I like a dude who says he likes me too. STOP! Maybe this is the answer (I don’t know!) Maybe I let on too soon my feelings for another and then their potential feelings just trip and fall from their pores as they sit wondering why they’re not with some chick they have to chase…? I know, I know-guys like a chase. I think my problem is, I do too. So this creates this weird, unbalanced, dynamic that leaves me wondering if they like me, which gets translated into my louder than usual sarcasm and indirect jabs that only serve to leave me back where I was (doin’ just fine, mind you) alone and sometimes, but only sometimes, lonelier than I would otherwise prefer. I know I’m not the only one feeling this way, but boy does it feel desolate on this page… Sent on the Sprint® Now Network from my BlackBerry®
